THE MIRROR I

                            April 2, 1997
                            by: raven shadowborne ©

                            Your words
                             they echo through my mind
                            Opening my eyes
                             to that which is inside
                              deep in my soul
                            I take my mirror
                             I look deep into my own eyes
                            Pondering that which I see

                            At first I see a woman
                             the features same as always
                            Then I look closer
                             deeper into my eyes

                            My mind
                             reels in shock at what I find.
                            The emotions
                             so raw, so deep
                            The fear
                             there for all to see
                            Struggling to comprehend
                             how to kill this fear
                            Disliking it's dark shadow

                            My heart it whispers
                             trust and the fear will go
                            My soul it cries, yes do it
                            My mind screams NO you can't
                             remember what happened
                             remember the pain
                             remember the loss
                            My heart it whispers
                             remeber the joy
                             remember the peace
                             remember the light
                             remember the pride
                             most of all remember the love
                              do not hide
                            My soul it cries
                             yes! that's it

                            My mind
                             it screams louder
                             throwing pictures of the past
                             throwing pictures of those long gone
                              and those still near
                             it feeds the fear
                            I fight as long as I can
                             The fear, it finally wins
                            I find myself falling
                             deep into despair
                             the pain overwhelming
                            a hell of my own making

                            My mind weary and weakened.
                             finally falls silent

                            My heart speaks
                             go, get what you seek, what you know you need
                             it's not too late
                             he has the same need

                            my head hung in shame
                             I go hoping he will see
                             daring to think maybe he will

                            He sees, he accepts
                            my heart sings
                             yet is left yearning

                            So here I sit
                             looking in my mirror
                            seeing my soul

                            Seeing my eyes
                             a little wiser
                             a lesson hard earned, but well taught
                            Trust and love
                             go hand in hand
                            You can not have one without the other
                             but together there is none better.

                            I see
                             a woman full grown
                             a woman of great beauty
                              deep within my soul
                            I smile
                             having made sense of it all
                            seeing the pride in myself
                            seeing the joy

                            The price
                             worth it to me
                            for I think I have learned
                            to finally be free